This is a story of hope from childhood trauma that developed into mental illness to recovery through relationships."I desired the security of my mother's love and nurturing after that terrible night but could not bring myself to share with her what happened at Henry' apartment. I was too afraid to tell her. More so, the lack of understanding that we were poor and my mother had to work to sustain us did not register in my restless mind. Not knowing that I was experiencing abandonment issues I blamed myself for the lack of intimacy with my mother."